i know I haven’t really used this in a long time.
but for the first time in 8 or so years I have a plan to kill myself. I know it’s wrong but I just can’t take it, help lines aren’t an option because I am scared to leave my room to get my phone.
I wont be doing it until tomorrow afternoon because thats the best time. I also plan on telling my mom when she gets home in an hour and seeing if she’ll take me to the emergency room or something. I can’t call a cab because my dad works there and it will embarass him and thats the whole reason I want to die.
I don’t understand why my room needs to be packed up 3 weeks ago when we move on saturday. I don’t understand why having it ready thursday is too late. I can’t tell whatever offensive smell you smell that makes you not want to have your friends move my furniture because of this horrible sinus infection i’m pretty sure you think i’ve been making up for the past 3 days because i don’t want to get my room done and get you off of my back. I’m sorry I’ve been up at 3 4 am because I can’t fucking breathe and sitting helps the snot drain from my nose dad. I’m pretty sure its the smell that annoys me when I take this medicine that makes it go away, but like I said I can’t tell.
I do know that if i realize I dying is stupid and I don’t get help I can’t be in the same room with you until we move at least. Thats gonna be akward and piss you off more so maybe I should just die.
I’m sorry I’m a 28 year old loser who is obsese and can’t get a job and is afraid of people, but I’m pretty sure you did that to me,
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